A new year in art

2011 was an interesting year. I made a lot of progress in art, mainly in setting it up on Etsy and Zazzle.. I even sold three paintings. That was encouraging.

So it’s amazing that here I am in 2012 feeling like nothing happened in 2011 and that so much more needs to be done. How many of you feel that way? Need to be more consistent in blogging, in joining etsy teams and forums, in uploading products to Zazzle, in gathering a following, in determining relevant content, updating my website…oh, and let’s not forget about doing art and growing as an artist.

I must say though, that as I look back on previous projects I have worked on, I do feel like I have made enormous strides in my art. What I once thought was amazing is now questionable, and what I am doing now seems superb!

These two are .pdf’s if you want to check them out:
Outside of a Program
Another event program

An inside page to a program.
An inside page to another program. This will be printed on pearlescent paper to give it a wonderful shine.

It just never feels like enough though, does it? Always should be doing more, putting more time into things, life, art…It’s utterly exhausting so that by the time I am sitting down to do some art, I have no energy or brain power to do it. Everybody has to be in a similar situation though. So how do you do it? How do you maintain your life and still have the energy, will and brain power to improve yourself and your art. Create art. Explore your soul. Write music. How do you find the balance in your life, to live a life, and achieve all of your goals?

Blog hope via @RockablePress

After a sleepless weekend of trying to figure out how to better manage Social Media, I made a decision. I keep seeing thisĀ  “How to build a successful blog business” ebook from Rockablepress.com. I’ve been hesitant to buy this book mainly because I think I should be able to find everything I need just by perusing sites. However, this has clearly not been working for me. I’ve been trying this social media/blog business for about a year now and still have had no success, no comments, no user interaction. In all honesty, it’s getting pretty old. I’m tired of feeling like a failure. I research all the time how to make this better and I still haven’t been able to do it. Granted, I lack a consistency that is essential to success. But I think it is more than just that. An obvious answer could be that there are so many blogs out there, already established, doing exactly what I am trying to do. So what’s the point? Why do I keep trying? I’m not sure. That existential question of what’s the point when there are so many other more talented designers/artists/yogis out there has been plaguing me for a while. Put me in all out crisis really. Lacking reason, motivation…the understanding of the why. It sucks walking down a path like that. So I am attempting to put the energy out there that says, I want to figure this out. Or I’ll have to give up and decide I was not meant to be a blogger.

To blog or not to blog

And it’s not just about making money on a blog. I already have a few jobs that pay. That’s not what I am after. I am after the interaction. I want to know if others have the same struggles, same excitement and just similar experiences as I do in this world. I don’t think I am so weird that no one has similar experiences. There has to be millions of people out there that like art and yoga. Hell, I’ll appreciate an either/or at these stage. I just want to share and have others share. I guess I just want to jump on the band wagon and do what everyone else is doing, and connect with people like everyone else is. I just want a piece of the online experience/success. I don’t want to be passed by as some ignorant nobody who couldn’t figure it out. I’m not ignorant, and I am a somebody. At least I think I am. Maybe you will too, eventually. I just need some help figuring it all out.

So, I bought the @RockablePress book. I haven’t had a chance to look at it, but I am hoping it was a good investment and it will help me make my blog, my time, my efforts worthy of a good investment and a good ROI as well.

We shall see, and this blog will be the evidence. Here’s to hope.

Social Media is keeping me up at night

Social media is keeping me up at night. Seems pathetic, but it is. I tossed and turned trying to figure out what I should be doing, what I am doing wrong and how I should be proceeding.

I feel like I am failing. And I am not entirely sure what I am doing wrong.

Social media is interesting. And pretty damn self-reflective. It’s all about trying to find what is most interesting about yourself that you think others would find interesting. Determining a niche has been hard for me. Generating interest even harder. And maintaining the motivation to consistently peruse it challenging.

I just don’t get it. I’m trying. I want to. But I just don’t get it.

How do you do it?

First Friday art walk

I went to the First Friday art walk this past Friday. It is always such an interesting phenomenon that leaves me curious. To be honest, I have not been to a First Friday in ages and could not remember why not. What could be more fun than milling around the Sante Fe Art District seeing the art work of my home town, where the studios stay open later, serve alcohol and have munchies out on the tables?

So a friend of mine went with me to First Friday. I am rarely graced with parking karma, and certainly was not on Friday night either. We went decently early, and yet we had to park quite a few blocks away, which, okay, I get it. Parking is rough. When we finally got to the first art gallery, we went in and started looking around. There were some really great pieces there. Interesting perspectives and interpretations of life. Classically, there were the college students with notebooks and pens, gathered around a few distinct pieces discussing why that piece worked. It was quaint and I smiled wondering if that was what I looked like back in my college days. We meandered around this gallery, silently absorbing the power of art, in this first gallery and getting excited about the art we would see/experience the rest of the night. (A little bit of excitement was dashed, I must admit, when a women with her dog in tow, loudly exclaimed to a man across the room that she was leaving and would catch up to him later.)

When we were ready, we left and proceeded onto the next gallery. And here is where I will stop my storing telling with minutia and begin with my overall impressions of the art walk. It took us forever to make it to the next gallery. We were at a dead stop for an impressive amount of time as the crowd continued to enmesh outside and around the door as a couple of apparently long lost friends stopped, mid-door way, to make their hellos. And as the crowd filled in around me, and I slowly started to feel like I was in a Megadeth pit instead of at a First Friday Art Walk, I took a look around. I began to wonder if the people around me actually wore those clothes on a regular basis or pulled them out of the depths of the closet specifically for this event. (Personally, I was in the clothes I wore to work). Is First Friday popular b/c people are truly interested in the art, or is it popular b/c it is trendy and artsy and in this confusing world we live in where our newest generations have no distinct identity of their own, but rather are an amalgamation of the past, people flock to the art district. And so people flock to the art district to feel artsy, to express their own version of art in their attire. Is it a trendy place people go to feel artistic? And I say flock, but I certainly did not feel I had the grace of a bird in flight. It was more akin to a herd of cows.

People always talk about First Friday and it it seems sacrilegious for an artist to not go to the Sante Fe district on this appointed day. As an artist, people always assume that I regularly attend First Friday b/c it is A) First Friday B) Networking C) Trendy? but I can not honestly say I go on a regular basis. I am reminded of the crowds and the feeling that I should be at home working on my art. I do understand the notion that one should network and get out and view others work to get a fresh perspective. Additionally, as I am trying to be an emerging artist, it can be about who you know, not how good your art is. (Though in this age of technology, when you can market your art to the world and not just a district, I am becoming a bit dubious.) On occasion you can talk to the artist, but they want to sell you their work, so it is not really a networking event. The studios cost about $500 a month to rent space and get your artwork shown, so talking to someone will not get you an in if you do not have the money, and really, there are so many people around, that a conversation is sometimes hardly plausible. I really want to like First Friday, and I will gladly admit, sometimes I do have fun (this time, my friend and I went in to maybe 5 galleries before throwing in the towel and walking the marathon back to our car.)

I could be being a pessimist who is not fond of crowds and wanted to be home making my art so maybe one day I can have something hanging instead of looking at others work, but I am not convinced that people actually look at the art in the galleries anyway. And I mean really look at it. It seems more like it has turned into a block party that has art galleries on the same street instead of a time to consider what the artists of Denver have to say.

I am very willing to be wrong and be called a jaded artist. Thoughts?

An artistic beginning

I have just finished the redesign to my site and am very excited for it. It nearly up-to-date and it has been quite a process! I have decided to start blogging in attempts to explore my art more and share it with others. Hopefully it will be a resource for others as well as a tool for my own educational purposes.

This is the start of a new adventure!